Beating my chest Yom-Kippur style, a presumed act of personal and collective repentance, demonstrating my sense of shame, determined to assume responsibility where necessary. That summarizes the process since the email I received in April 2024. A professional contact, a woman representing Pax Christi, not accusing, just matter-of-factly relating to genocide in Gaza. I told the head of my organization, intending to set my correspondent straight. He discouraged me, asking how I thought things looked to the outside world. Understood – as an individual I could suggest she reconsider her choice of words, but representing an organization, I should contain my struggle.

Belonging to a team invariably affects my personal viewpoint movements. Adapting, I expand or reduce the focus of my lens, constantly.

I selectively delved into academic analyses convincing me Israel’s actions in Gaza qualified as genocide. Members of the government of Israel and individual Israeli personalities with wide media following made statements calling for the death of every Gazan from the delivery room to the deathbed.

I followed online arguments against pro-Palestinian claims that........

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