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Guest Essay

By Makenna Goodman

Ms. Goodman is the author of two novels, “Helen of Nowhere” and “The Shame.”

Several years ago, I stopped going to therapy. I no longer trusted myself to tell the story of my life in a way that felt forward-moving. I harbored a suspicion that the therapist held some knowledge of me that she would one day reveal — like whether I should switch careers or move — but she never did.

I’ve always wanted to believe in a magic that transcends the human-constructed world, a universe that sees me, that can hold me when I fail to hold myself. But then again, it’s possible that wanting to believe in magic is a projection of my own laziness, my........

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