I had a lot of shame about things I did in mania, psychosis, and even depression. Hypersexuality, promiscuity, physically pushing people, yelling at people, disappearing for hours at a time, refusing to return calls from worried friends and family, and running naked in the streets. I did all those things. And I was ashamed of them. The aftermath of hypersexuality was the most difficult to deal with and face. I still cringe a bit when I think about what I went through.

To deal with that shame and the regrets, I needed to separate my behaviour from who I was. I needed to understand that my behaviour was driven by this condition. A severe condition: rapid cycling bipolar 1 disorder with psychotic features. It wasn’t to excuse the behaviour, or dismiss it. But I needed........

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